i think, maybe, i'll never trust anyone but myself. i know i use to trust the judgment of others, but at that point my friends were too young to have fucked up yet.

it's amazing- everything is too stupid. i want to divorce myself from life. i want to quit humanity.

i wish i could be one of those people who love life and people, but i'm never going to be that way. i'm judgmental and bitter. i always will be. i'm just better. period. and i don't know how you love people you can't even respect. i don't know how you trust people you have no faith it.

i'm going to marry my sewing maching. i'm going to have an affair with my prisms. they don't do coke, or cheat on their boyfriends. they don't drive drunk, or leave their toddlers alone in the bathtub. i'd probably make a better rollerskate. i'm a horrible mistake of a person.