1) i will always come first. if i have to stab you in the back to save my own ass, so be it.

2) i will always lie to you (and you, and you) if i feel the need. treat me with cynical suspicion. it's ok. i understand. i fully deserve it. i'll just come up with another lie to cover myself.

3) i won't come clean. ever. i'll just add more layers. you'll only make it worse by trying.

4) i'll never trust you. trying to prove yourself is a waste of time. i know what people are like. they are pathetic and selfish.

5) if i can sense that you are going to hurt me i will attack. i will hurt you. i will bring up every little fault and weakness that i have ever seen. i will leave you feeling horrible for days. you'll wish you had never met me. you will think that maybe you hate me. you will doubt every good thing i ever said, every good moment we ever had. i will make you feel lower than dirty. i will make you feel guilty for tainting me with the pure filth that is you. i will ruin every thing i love about you just to make you feel bad. and then i will never feel ok with you again because i know you will never feel ok with me again.

sorry? i wish you had found someone better.