it hurts is all. and i never want to let someone that close, where it hurts this much. when i just want to cut them out of my life forever so that i don't care anymore.

fuck off, world.

i don't know how i feel about anyone anymore. i use to feel special, i use to feel he was special. but he's just a boy. and i'm just a girl. soon enough there will be reason to leave, and then i'll just be another girl he's fucked.

and he'll just be.. whatever.

i want to talk to josef. god damn him. he'd never understand this, but at least i understand him. that's something. it's more than what i've got.

a.