oh my lord.
i really forgot how much i hated loosing a long entry. pouring your heart out to the glowing screen and having it suddenly dissapear in front of your eyes. it's enough to make you cry.
i always find it mind blowing when i read people's ideas on song lyrics and realize how different they are from mine. i've been reading people's ideas on 'say yes' by elliott smith, and i swear i'd going to kick the next person who mentions heroin. not every fucking song is about it! good lord. anyway, i love that song. to me it's about someone who just had their first really positive relationship. she stuck around the morning after- she was a keeper. things get fucked up, like they always do, and they break up. they always thought that such a crushing blow would be the end of them. break ups have always been hard on them. they have always 'played the fool' and were sure that the loss of this relationship would just be too much. instead they found that they were also around the morning after- they survived the break up. instead of falling apart they realize that they are sure in their feelings of love, admit that maybe things are beyond repair, and hope that they are not. to me the 'say yes' at the end isn't begging someone to love you, it's him admiting his own love. saying 'i can't make you love me. i'll just have to stand back and let you do your thing. whatever happens i'm sure i still love you." he's saying yes to how he feels, and that it's a beautiful thing, not something to cause pain and heart ache.

blah dee fucking blah.

i'm in love with the world through the eyes of a girl
who's still around the morning after
we broke up a month ago and i grew up i didn't know
i'd be around the morning after
it's always been wait and see
a happy day and then you pay
and feel like shit the morning after
but now i feel changed around and instead falling down
i'm standing up the morning after
situations get fucked up and turned around sooner or later
and i could be another fool or an exception to the rule
you tell me the morning after
crooked spin can't come to rest
i'm damaged bad at best
she'll decide what she wants
i'll probably be the last to know
no one says until it shows and you see how it is
they want you or they don't
say yes
i'm in love with the world through the eyes of a girl
who's still around the morning after

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