i want to change the locks on the fucker. i want to throw all his shit out onto the lawn, out into the rain. i deserve so much better than this. i don't know what i was thinking. loneliness is such a horrible feeling. it sucks away everything that is good inside you and leaves you with this dark pit. ache: To suffer a dull, sustained pain. To yearn painfully. that about sums me up right now.