yes. yes. ok. point taken.

and it is a big step.

and the biggest step is being vulnerable, being hurt, and realizing that it didn't kill you. i'm ok. it's not my deal, it's his. i can only choose to open myself, i can't demand to only recieve the good. people are people, and they all make mistakes, and they all tell lies, and they all have faults. if you can not deal with this, then you will never be close to anyone.
i wasn't lied to because i deserved it. it is not about me, it's about him. it's his weakness, not mine.

and i'm doing ok. pretty good.